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by Morgan Osman April 25, 2020 167 Comments

Welcome to the most beautiful city in America! Besides New York, of course. Los Angeles is such a glamorous, magical yet seriously fucked up place. The weather is unmatched, the food is amazing, the shops are extravagant, the mountains are unreal, the beaches (not in LA, but in California) are stunning and the possibilities are endless. Right? RIGHT! And that’s where the problem lies, too many possibilities. 
I moved to Miami, FL from Connecticut at 18. By 25 I had been living in Miami for just about 7 years when I became wildly obsessed with moving to Los Angeles with no goal in mind, just wanting a change of scenery. I was a bartender in Miami. I did a lot of (recreational) drugs, partied for days at a time and had the best group of friends. Honestly, those were some of the best years of my life!! We didn’t judge each other. We weren’t accepted by one and other solely based on what we could do for each other. Granted, I was much younger then. Times change now so rapidly. Reality TV was taking over and Shows like The Simple Life and Keeping up with the Kardashian’s started showcasing the “beautiful lifestyle” of Hollywood. I remember seeing the girls on Instagram, all looking so soft and beautiful. I was over working in nightlife, and the life in LA just seemed so much more healthy and not as hardcore as Miami. Or so I thought. I didn’t want to come to LA to be famous. Still to this day, I’ve never wanted fame. Maybe thats the the problem. Maybe I should have wanted more for myself here but fame, definitely not. I dream of a job that requires no daily hair, make up, nails and camera in my face. I would love to have been a social worker had I finished school. But, that’s just me. I know a lot of women love the glitz and glam but at my core, I don’t. I enjoy real fun, letting loose, genuine laughter and no judgement. I had only been to LA twice before and I hated it both times, so I don’t really know why I wanted to move here so bad. But, in typical Morgan fashion, when I become fixated on something, I can’t let it go. The first time I came here was to film the Bad Girls Club Reunion. I was 21 years old. It was a reality television show I had been on for only one episode, but became so known from. They put me in a motel with bars on the windows in the Valley. For those who are not familiar with Los Angeles, a motel in the Valley alone was scary, not the safest and not a very good representation of LA. I was there for about three days, filmed the reunion and couldn’t wait to get back to Miami. My second time in LA I went on the biggest drug bender. One of my biggest and scariest ones ever. I had no intentions of doing drugs on my trip. I’ve never had the intention of doing drugs actually. Once I’m drunk I say yes to everything. Well not everything, but almost. Never have I purchased drugs before going out. Never have I called a girlfriend and said “Hey bring drugs let’s party tonight”. As a girl, a young girl, drugs are offered to you left and right and it’s up to you to decide if you want them or not. I just so happen to say yes too often when I’ve had a drink or two. On that particular night out, I remember seeing a girl that I always looked up to. She is a very famous Instagram blogger. She’s soft, girly and “safe”. She’s recently gone on to start a company that is now in Sephora. Anyway, she somehow knew who I was, we said hello to each other and 5 min later I saw her being carried out with her eyes rolling in the back of her head. I was shocked. I was thinking “OMG! SHE does drugs!” Yes, even “good girls” do drugs. I met a group of promoters that night at Bootsy Bellows and I ended up at an after party in a small Hollywood apartment, God only knows where. I didn’t know anyone there except my girlfriend who was with me from Miami. I think, still don’t know to this day, I ended up mistakenly doing meth. YES! You read that right, meth!! A friend later told me its very common in LA, people do it like coke. I had no idea. I was literally off my face for days. Speed balling like crazy. Pure mania. I had never ever felt like that in my life. As I stated above, I did my fair share of recreational drugs but this was some other shit! I should probably clear the air as to what drugs I have done. Coke, molly, ecstasy, xanax and marijuana. Not all at once, but over my lifetime. I’ve never tried shrooms (I hate to hallucinate) crack, pain pills, meth or anything with a needle. I wanted to leave that house so bad but I didn’t even know where I was. Everyone was so high and wacky. I ended up there for days and when I finally “came to,” I left. This was before the days of Uber so I had to call a taxi. I had no cash on me, had to go to the ATM a hot mess and get my ass out of LA. I booked a flight the same day. I’m such an organized packer, but fuck that! I threw everything in my suitcase and rushed to the airport. I was still tripping the entire time. You may be thinking “that’s your fault for doing drugs with people you don’t know”. That’s my point exactly. This city is wonderful but it can also be the weirdest, scariest hard to explain - dark place. I'm fully aware it’s all what you make of it. No one forced me to do drugs, I didn’t get hurt but I was young, 23. I knew better, but I didn’t. 
Around The Second Time I Visited LA:
-- No idea why I'm wearing black/white in both pics but those are all I could find.
My Bartending Days in Miami:
-- Sorry for the poor quality photos, this is over 8 years ago. 
Years later, at 25 I moved to LA. While working in the nightclub in Miami, I met a young, successful good looking guy through mutual friends. He lived in LA, we hit it off, stayed in touch over the summer and then he asked to move me here. I was obviously so happy. I manifested moving to LA but didn’t even realize I had done it. I didn’t have money to move myself here so the universe figured it out for me, as it always does! He put me in my own apartment in a nice building, gave me a car to drive (I later found out it was his ex-girlfriend’s car, but how I found out is the funny part) and was generous. At first! He quickly, like one of our first nights out type of quickly, became abusive and controlling. I remember I had gotten my hair and make up done for the first time in my life by a celebrity makeup artist. I looked really pretty that night. As we pulled up to Mr. Chow he asked me to hold his watch so the valet wouldn’t steal it. I didn’t hear him ask me and he slammed my face so hard into the passengers window. I started hysterically crying and he basically was like “Oh relax! Wipe your tears we have to see people at dinner.” I was so shocked and disgusted. I knew from that moment I had to leave him and I had to be very smart about it. At the same time, for the first time ever, I was approached by a fashion brand to do my own capsule collection. I was elated. I couldn't believe I could start my journey into fashion and have a purpose/job. My boyfriend didn't allow it. He literally lost his shit when I brought it up saying: "The owner just wants to fuck you, you better not even think about it." I was devistated but stuck, he paid my bills and I didn't know LA well enough to leave him. I stayed with him for a few months, saved up as much money as I could and finally left. The night before I left him he verbally and physically abused me for hourssssss. So the next morning, I put all of my stuff in garbage bags, loaded up three Uber Escalade’s and went to stay at my friends. I didn’t tell him I left, I just blocked him. After a few hours when he had noticed I was gone, he started emailing me nonstop. He was begging to see me because it was Christmas time and he promised that he would never do it again. I never responded to the emails, I never saw him again. - I could elaborate a lot more about that situation but as I'm new to this blog stuff, I still can't tell if it's interesting or comes off as rambling. -
 *** Because I think it’s funny, let me tell you how I found out that it was his ex-girlfriend’s rental car. He slept all day, and I woke up very early. Every morning I would go down and get a coffee around 7 AM. I smoked cigarettes at the time, I no longer do. So I would make a coffee, smoke a cigarette and drive around LA waiting for the monster to wake up. I have no idea why, but I left in an oversized T-shirt, no underwear (actually, I rarely wear underwear so that’s not that shocking) and sneakers. I never got out of the car, I would just go on these drives so I guess it didn’t seem like a big deal. Well, I got pulled over with no license on me. I wasn’t familiar with the streets and I had taken a wrong turn. The cops said that the person who owned the vehicle needed to come pick it up, and if I couldn’t produce some form of identification they would be booking me. Booking me with no make up on, a T-shirt and NO UNDERWEAR! Fuck me! I was nervous. My ex came (angry as fuck beacuse it was so early) to retrieve the car and they said “Sir, this is registered to....his ex girlfriend.” Oh! Cool. I’m driving his ex’s car, fuck me life. The car got impounded, I got to go home and it just added to the reasons why I wanted to leave him so badly. ***
Luckily - literally luckily, two girls I knew from Miami had just moved to LA as well. We weren't close, we didn't hang out much, but one had of the girls called me coincidentally as I was in the uber leaving my ex. I moved into their livingroom embarassed and beyond stressed, living off of the little bit of money that I had saved. I had to rent a Mitsubishi for $800 a month until I was back on my feet. I knew everyone was watching and I didn't want people to know what I was going through. Inevitably, they did. On top of that, my roomates had very famous friends at the house all the time. They only dated or were friends with famous people. Ya know, the LA way. I was beyond grateful they let me stay with them, but also insecure given I was living behind a curtain in thier livingroom. Just goes to show that I was serious about leaving my abusive ex, and I was strong. I wasn’t doing drugs and barely drank. Neither did they. Then, I started getting Instagram deals and making more money. I bought myslef a new BMW M6 and at this point, LA had grown on me and I was starting to like it. I eventually moved out of there into another apartment with another roommate. She too was “normal”, never even tried marijuana in her life, had a normal job, not anything Hollywood and we had a good relationship. I loved living with her. 
My Roomates and I:
After that my life changed EXTREMELY. I met a very wealthy man and we dated for a year. I was really into him but we had a huge age gap. I wanted kids but he already had 3. He took incredible care of me. He helped me start a business and showered me with the most insane gifts. Example: 2nd date at lunch he bought me a brand new G65 V12 G Wagon. Only 2 in the country at the time. I drove off the lot and went left, he went right. He never expected anything in exchange for his gifts, he was really genuinely just a generous person. I was shocked. Did that really just happen?! This was a whole new world to me. By our 4th date, he flew us to NYC for a private meeting with one of the biggest jewelers to all the celebrity’s, Lorraine Schwartz. We spent $400,000 on a pair of 8 carat diamond earrings. We stayed in the penthouse at the Peninsula in Manhattan and shopped everyday. Again!! I was shocked!! All women like nice things but this was system overload. I never experienced this in my life. He didn’t stop there. It was weekly, constantly being spoiled, and it all happened so fast. So, in case you’re not following all of this, I’m painting you a picture on purpose. Of the good, the bad and just showing you how bizarre LA can be because it has so many layers. One day I’m doing drugs, and scared to death to even live in LA, and in 2 years time I’m living a completely different life. After a few months he rented me a mansion in the hills for $29,000 a month and only came over once. The view was insane. In LA you PAY for the view. I had a big theater, sick pool, an outdoor cabana, 4 bedrooms and I was all alone. I was actually really scared because the houses in the hills get robbed all the time. People don't talk about it because they don't want wealthy people scared away from buying/renting these luxury properties. I decided to move my 22 year brother in with me. In less than a week, I moved him from Connecticut to California. We had the best fucking time together. We would go out, buy $30,000 tables at nightclubs week after week. Everyone knew I was living a great life and there was no shortage of fun. We gave no fucks and lived it up!. After that relationship ended, I was 28 and lost. I had changed a lot with my ex. I had A LOT of money saved, a black Amex, a huge house in the hills and 2 really nice cars. I went back out on the scene single and it was the same. Young girls in night clubs, fucked up 24.7 and I had outgrown that. My brother moved in with his girlfriend, but what was my plan?! I didn’t have one. What do I do with all of this money? What do I do for work, since I hadn’t worked in a long time. 
My Life "On Top." Ya know - Shopping Sprees, Mansion, Cars, Cash and Drugs:
-- Again, I wish I had more photos. I thought I did (I must!). Obvisouly there is so much more to show you guys, but I can only find so many of the really old ones.
I went on to lose $130,000 cash in a horrible business deal with a woman who owned an online clothing boutique. I was so excited to work again, especially in fashion. I would sit with her from 8am - 8pm daily. I didn't have to. It was just a collaboration collection and I didn't need to work as hard as I did, but I loved it. She lied the entire time making fake invoices to get more and more money from me. People kept telling me "You should never spend that much on a collaboration, stop working with her now!" I didn't listen because one, I could afford it at the time, and two, I loved doing it. Unfortunately, they were right. I later found out she told people she only worked with me to have my house robbed of my diamonds. How disgusting. I worked with her for months. We were close. She told me: "I've always wanted to work with you and I admire everything about you." I had no idea she was such a bad person, although people did warn me. In hindsight, it was so obvious she was obsessed with me and I don't mean that in a flattering way. Anyway, that deal ended very badly. I never made a dollar and I was so angry. Luckily, I had more money saved and I was fine but that’s just another example of why this city is just so wild. So many good things here, but so many people with bad personalities/intentions. I never spoke to her again but I had learned a lot from her. I applied my knowledge and started my own online fast fashion boutique called "Flora Mason." My brothers name is Mason and and I LOVE flowers, in case you cared. My laptop screen saver is still my Flora Mason logo as a constant reminder that it's my first fashion endeavor alone, and there is more to come. It was right around the time Fashionova came on the scene. They weren't big at all yet, and it was the exact same concept; Taking apparel from downtown LA and reselling it as your "own." I loved it! I would go downtown, choose all the looks myself, shoot it on the models and sold out all the time. My life was getting good again. I had a career, a house and I had 4 sick ass cars - A Range Rover Autobiography, the G Wagon, M6, and a Rolls Royce Wraith. I lied, I had a Maserati GranTurismo Sport Coupe too. Yupp, thats a lot of whips. Anyway, I was just getting into it when.... when I met Philipp. (FUCK MY LIFE!) I didn't want to give up what I was FINALLY doing for myslef for someone else, but that’s a separate post, maybe even 3.
My Collaboration Collection (I loved) That I Was Robbed of:
-- This collection sold like crazy but I never saw a dollar or got any credit for it. Good ol' LA!
My Fast Fashion Brand "Flora Mason":
Some Poduct Shots On the Model for Flora Mason:
Then I Met This Guy &Gave Up My Life For His:
I’ve also had some pretty shitty friends a long the way. Never did I have one issue with one friend in Miami, ever! And in LA it’s just not like that. I made friends with the wrong people because I was "on top" and it IS lonely at the top. Well, it doesn't have to be if you're fake, but for me it was lonely. My BEST friend at the time, stole brand new Chanel, Dior and Balmain from my G Wagon. I let her use my car for months (because she drove a Maserati Ghibli - in LA terms, a piece of shit car) while I was with Philipp in Europe. She borrowed $5,200 from me to pay her rent. Didn’t pay the rent because the lease wasn’t even in her name, got evicted and never paid me back. She rented my car out the entire time and I had no clue because I was so far away. Not until much later did her friend come forward with emails/texts to prove it. This one really hurt me because we were so close. She was in an abusive relationship during a part of our friendship and came to my house for safety all the time. We spoke 24.7 while I was with Philipp and I always was there for her, even from the other side of the world. I gave her 9 (more) months of friendship while I waited for her to return my belongings. She attended Philipp's fashion show front row in NYC with me. She came over everyday, and everyday I asked "Where are my belongings." She would say "Oh, I forgot them at my place, I'll give them to you tomorrow, sorry." Mind you, I already knew she was lying, I MEAN IT WAS PRETTY FUCKING OBVIOUS! Bitch! Don't ever question my intelligence :) I let her lie until the morning I was leaving NYC to St Barths. THAT morning she told me "Oh, I didn't know how to tell you, they got lost in the mail." She was living in NYC at the time, why would she ship them when she could have easily packed/flown with them. Again, I was more hurt than angry but it quickly turned to anger. She's never admitted to any of it and claims the 4 handbags she stole were lost in the mail but never gave me a tracking number proving she even shipped them, because she didn't. Instead, she went about her social climbing life and still lives a fake ass life for the gram. I still see her wearing my jewelry and handbags lol. Unfortunately this "breakup", if that's what you call it, played out all over social media. Since then, I’ve made a few good/close friends, but only a few because the rest are all fake. I could have 283738 more “friends,” I don’t want them. I don’t trust people. That’s why I’ve created this platform to connect with people who support me, who are kind and just "get" me. 
My Brand New (with the tags) Balmain Dress and Chanel Bags That Were Stolen/Lost in the Mail. They are Both My Chanel Bags BTW :
Her With My G Wagon:
-- Like damn, you didn't have to post all my shit pretending it was yours but, THAT'S LA!
Proof of Funds I sent Her to HELP Her Because I Cared About Her:
Texts I sent her Nicely Trying To Retrive My Belongings That I KNEW She Was Lying About:
The Next Morning When I called Her Out She Was A Bitch Like I Did Something Wrong:
 
Her Fake Ass Apology/Still Lying:
And My Reaction Months Later When Someone Told Me The Truth. As You Can Imagine I was So Angry, Plus This is How I Am. Sorry Not Sorry, Don't Fuck With Me:
 -- Update. I'm not angry anymore, years have passed. That was obviously in the heat of the moment, and as you can clearly see, we were really close and I was hurt. It still doesn't sit well with me bacause we know all the same people and she's just a nasty person, but whatever. 
After giving you guys so many different stories to better understand why LA is so hard to explain, I want to be clear - LA isn’t all bad. So many people have come here and have done incredible things. Some people literally become millionaires over night. Some people meet the man of their dreams and go on to live really amazing lives. I don’t hate LA. I actually hate that I like LA. The truth is, there's just no place like it in the world. As if Hollywood wasn't already secretly fucked up enough, Instagram has made people act extreme and do the most mind blowing things to stay popular and be excepted. Even the “happy” married women of “status” desperately make an effort to always paint the most perfect picture, when we all know damn well, nothing’s perfect. I've lived so many lives all over the world, and I've seen so many things, yet still can't believe the shit I see here. Everyone is a clone. We all look alike, go to the exact same places, to get that exact same photo to be exactly like the next person. Everyone talks about eachothers business like they work for TMZ. The reality for many is nothing like what they portray, but fake it till you make it, right. When I was “up” everyone was up my ass. Literally! So obvious and pathetic. For years everyone watched my Snapchat lavish life, came to my big house and wanted to be my best friend. But, I’m from the east coast and I could see right through it all. Example: A very famous young socialite and I hung out all the time. The first night I went out in LA with Philipp, we ran into her. He knew her as well, and she whispered in his ear "Oh my god, you're with HER!" I was thinking "UMMMMM?! I thought we were friends?!" Oh yea, we were only friends when she was doing coke all night partying at my house, I forgot, silly me! That would never had happened with my group of friends in Miami. Anyway, people don’t know how to make genuine friendships here because they're stuck social climbing. Can I blame them, no. It’s Hollywood and that’s why people come here. It’s a mind fuck. It’s a battle with your morals and what your willing to do to become successful in this city. There’s not much most people wouldn’t do to have millions of followers which translates to a lot of money and attention.
I don’t live in Beverly Hills anymore. I purposely live close the airport because I travel a lot, and LA traffic is a nightmare. I live in the nicest, quiet, most beautiful place near the water. I’ve found that in order for ME to love LA, I had to separate myself from that lifestyle and the people in it. I needed to be at peace. I got back to helping the homeless downtown on Skid Row [Skid Row contains one of the largest stable populations (about 2,783) of homeless people in the United States and has been known for its condensed homeless population since the 1930s, covering fifty city blocks immediately east of downtown Los Angeles.] I never did it to show off. I have genuine empathy for these people and when I leave them I'm heartbroken, but happy to have interacted with them. I would go alone handing out so much food and water, and I would talk to them and listen to their stories. I changed. I removed myself from the scene I got caught up in. I took Spanish lessons in Beverly hills lol, I started cooking and working out 3 times a day. I also stopped partying, very rarely. I literally never go out. Quarantine hasn't killed me, I love being home so it's been quite easy for the most part. I've gone on to have 3 very successful swimwear collaborations (now on my 4th), start another fashion brand (coming soon and it's epic), be on billboards all over this city and launched STILLTHATBITCH.COM ! I don’t do drugs, except Xanax and weed. Trust me, it's in everyone's best interest that I at least smoke some weed. Doesn't mean you'll never see me get fucked up again in my life, I just currently could care less to. I’m in a good place, learning myself and learning that this city is what I make of it. I was handed everything for years, I had to teach myself to take care of myself again. Maybe it’s just me, maybe someone else could tell you they never had one issue here and I’m completely off my rocker. BUT! Statistics will show that I am probably more accurate than that person. Look at all the child stars, actors and singers who are disasters now. Look at all the people who have overdosed and committed suicide. Look at Whitney Houston, Heath Ledger and Robin Williams. Britney Spear’s infamous meltdown. Kanye West admitting to being addicted to prescription pain meds and going to a mental institution. Amanda Bynes completely lost her shit and has the saddest mental health issues. Anna Nicole Smith overdosed, then her son did as well. Nicole Richie took heroine as a kid. Selena Gomez is very open about her battle with mental health. Miley Cyrus has made it a point to create a platform based around mental health awareness. The Me Too Movement....The list goes on forever. This city can really make you question your entire existence and make you feel insane. I mean!!!! You get what I’m saying, there’s no other place like it in the world!  * H O L L Y W O O D *
Behind The Scenes Of My Billboards Shot By Famous Photographer Tony Kelly In Milan, Italy:
 
-- I wore wigs and I was all 4 people in the campaign. We used water in real life and then photoshopped it into liquor.
Final Product, 7 Billboards All Over La:
Some of My Favorite Swimsuit Campaign Pictures with L'Animal:
 
- That turned out to be a much longer blog than I expected. I wanted to explain it all but really didn’t know how to. That’s the best I could come up with for now, and thats the (very) short version. If you think thats wild, ohhh there is so much more to come! And if you do come to Hollywood to pursue your dreams, you 100% can! The opportunities here are endless, you just have to stay focused avoiding the inevitable distractions. So many people would kill to live here, and so many immigrants have made the most incredible lives for themselves in sunny Southern Califoria. Hell, I've made a pretty damn good one for myself! I just wanted to share some of my personal past/present experiences and feelings about LA with you guys. I had this idea three days ago and just ran with it. Thats whats so exciting about this platform, it's random and real. I'm enjoying this way more than I could have imagined. 
 
Let me know what you guys think in the comments. I'm interested to see if you think I just did it “all wrong,” OR if you’ve seen the dark side as well, and understand me. - I've looked into why I can't reply to the comments below, they are working on it. It states on their site it's "coming soon." I'm sorry, just bear with me.
Yours Truly,
THAT BITCH 

Morgan Osman
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67 Responses

Sam
Sam

April 25, 2020

Love this!!!! It’s so real. I gained respect for you after this story. Thank you for sharing

Darya
Darya

April 25, 2020

Morgan you are literally everything to me, I can’t explain it but I look up to you in every way! I’ve been following you since the Bad Girls Club dayzzz. How come you didn’t talk about Erica? I thought you guys’ friendship was the cutest! (Loved how you guys gave each other the Cartier love rings). Are you still friends with Chantel and Catherine? You guys were also goalsssss.

Jessica
Jessica

April 25, 2020

It‘s so crazy to read this post. I’ve been following you ever since I saw you on Bad Girls Club. Years later I saw an Ad online for your Reality TV Show with Big Ang. I was so glad to see you again. Then when you moved to LA and was living with your two roommates I remember watching your snapchats all the time. I was so sad that I never got to meet you when you and Chantel visited Germany or you were here because of Jerome or Philipp. Loved reading this post and can‘t wait for more.

MARIAM
MARIAM

April 25, 2020

I have always wanted to move from my country and start a life somewhere else… I wanted to go to NY and study fashion design at Parsons, but I am still in the waiting list and I might not get in… I’ll probably still have to wait, but I’ll move to Paris or London instead. This blog post actually made me want more to move and start fresh, I am thinking about becoming a bartender too

Mary
Mary

April 25, 2020

Thank you for sharing! Your amazing!

Sabrina
Sabrina

April 25, 2020

OMG I’d beat a bitch if she stole any of my Chanel bags and lied about them getting “lost” in the mail! God bless you, Morgan!! LOL I’ve been following you for years! You are so incredible. Keep shining, babe!!!

Angel
Angel

April 25, 2020

Loved it!!! Hope we can hear about your time on TV :)

Maia I
Maia I

April 25, 2020

Great read! Thank you so much for the honesty, real and unpretentiousness!
Like you! Beautiful! I have seen you in Vegas, and damn you are really more gorgeous in person…not a cliche…I have seen your ex too.. def something strange about that guy. but I am sure you will tell us the whole thing..😃

Chantel
Chantel

April 25, 2020

Loved it, Morgan! So nice to hear about your life before PP (as I only started following you around that time).

LA is such a fucking enigma. I spent a summer there from Australia with my girlfriend years ago – one night we were at Greystone on a table with Johnny Deep and Marilyn Mason and the next day some French guy picked us up in a rolls Royce to took us for pedicures?
Meanwhile my girlfriend and I could barely afford our hotel room! Just so wild and bizarre.

Sorry to hear about that nasty-ass-friend, I almost feel sorry for her if she wasn’t such a piece of work.

Stay that Bitch,

Chantel x

Emily
Emily

April 25, 2020

Just wow! This one was beyond. Loved how you spoke a bit on each different journey and moment of your time in Hollywood/LA. I’ve been through some rough times myself and in an abusive relationship so I can relate to that. Especially in the sense of coming up with a plan to get out and how it isn’t so easy as everyone may think to just pack up and walk out the front door right away. You are one strong ass bitch and I commend you for that! This was extremely well written and I felt as though I was right there going through it all with you! Cannot wait for the next post! Loving this so much keep it coming girl! Xoxo

Adriana
Adriana

April 25, 2020

I’m with the other girl that commented that she’d never read a blog post this long. Like wow you had glued to my screen!

I have followed you since the days when you first moved in with your 2 roommates in LA. And as someone who has also shared a small living space with 3 people (and lived in the living room while acting like life was normal for the gram) I can relate to so many parts of this post. From the fake friends, and being overly generous to others to just having it thrown back in your face. But like you said it’s something that we learn from and these crazy, trying times really help shape us into the bad ass humans we are!
I have a blog myself and after reading your first two posts you’ve inspired me to be more REAL with my audience and not be so dry and talk about what’s trending. Like who cares, we’re in quarantine and a story time with friends style blog post that we can all relate to is what we need right now! Can’t wait for the next post!

Deborah M
Deborah M

April 25, 2020

BITCHHHHHHHH, if this isn’t the truth. Beauty behind the madness. The madness has became home so you found happiness.
You’re killing it 💗Love the transparency

Bea
Bea

April 25, 2020

This was AMAZING! What a gripping story! I’m so glad you talked about the good and the bad! Omg that wealthy guy who gave you whatever you wanted?? Talk about jealous lol. It really sucks that you gave your “friend” so many chances and she still took you for granted. I can tell that you have such a big heart! You honestly should be charging more lol, this was soooo good to read! And this is only the beginning! You’ve really turned your life around for the better, and it shows!

💓💓💓

Vanessa
Vanessa

April 25, 2020

WOW. Just. Wow. I woke up this morning and first thing I see while in bed was your post on IG saying your new post was available. Obviously I clicked on the link and started reading right away. 1) I’m blown away by your writing abilities. Your grammar is so good and how you gave only a little glimpse of each story/situation makes people (like myself lol) want to come back and read more. 2) I’ve been following you for a while and all I see is your life on IG. Filled with glamorous people and glamorous things. It’s weird or cliche but after reading this I felt so much closer to you and like reading the behind the scenes stuff that’s beyond your glamorous social media “life”. I liked how raw you were and was a little surprised when you were willing to talk about the not so pleasant things like your abusive relationship or doing drugs as it’s personal and I can bet you, no other IG girl would ever willingly admit to doing drugs (the horror!) as it would tarnish their little “image” they have on social media. That’s why I like you, you been keeping it real since day 1. I live around the LA area but wasn’t from here originally and could 100% relate to this post. Of how people are shady af and to watch your back constantly. And how you can get lured into getting sugar daddies to buy you things (the easy way out, because everyone has one) to show off. But it’s all an image and not a sustainable life. I never comment on anything, but I felt compelled to reply back to you cus it just hit something in me after I read it. I get you girl. It’s nice cus I feel like I know you a little more. So thanks for sharing those personal stories with us. You didn’t have to. Keep up the good work, you got this.
Also: you definitely should charge more for the content you’re putting up LOL. :)

Emma
Emma

April 25, 2020

WOW! Morgan i am in awe by reading this blog post. Your writing is so enjoyable to read and i just want to thank you for being so honest with us!❤️ It helps us understand and see you as how you truly are, which is SO honest and pure!! It’s crazy how many people have to go through so much shit in life, we’ve all been through hard times…but it’s amazing when you work hard and put your mind to it what you can actually do for yourself in the long run and how far you can go! Beautiful inspiring posts Morgan we are all looking forward to more!! with love xx

Nat
Nat

April 25, 2020

Loved this!!! But two questions: 1) why didnt you pull up to Durrani’s spot and whoop her ass/sue her? Lol. aaaand why did you and chantel jeffries stop being friends? Also, why did things end with the super wealthy guy who bought you lorraine schwartz? This was suuuuch a great read. Can’t wait for the next one & i love that it’s long AF.

Margot
Margot

April 25, 2020

❤❤❤❤❤❤🏅🏅🏅👑👑👑👑👑So there I was watching Netflix and had to push pause to read this real, raw blog! You haven’t had it easy. Some would say you have, but I’d aegue that. It would certainly be easy to lose youself during all of that! Good for you for writing this blog and making money while doing it! Go for gold 🥇🥇🥇🥇

Carobayala
Carobayala

April 25, 2020

Amazing

Elizabeth
Elizabeth

April 25, 2020

Thank you for being so real & honest. I admire your strength! ❤️

Jodi Brandenburg
Jodi Brandenburg

April 25, 2020

Okay so I’ve never read a blog that long that kept my attention all the way through. What a fucking interesting story lol. Knew this was gonna be great though. And omg the tea with your “best” friend.. I think I know who that is!!!! So juicy.

Honey H
Honey H

April 25, 2020

Loved this post. So detailed and authentic!!! Which made it that much fun to read. I’ve never in my life enjoyed reading a blog as much as this one. You literally so talented. Love your heart.

Can’t wait till your next post.
Love,
Honey xx

Vicki Guglielmo
Vicki Guglielmo

April 25, 2020

Next Jackie Collins!!!! Please write books we need some juicy summer reads! Love your writing!

Angela ( montreal ,canada)
Angela ( montreal ,canada)

April 25, 2020

I just love reading you… iv been following you for a few years now ans i always loved what you Portray your life but was always curious how this lavish life style must be … everything i interesting to read Ans im surprise on many things … keep it up your good at what you do❤️
Cant wait to hear about the philippe part 😁

Courtney S
Courtney S

April 25, 2020

Morgan- your blog is the REALEST thing I have ever read. What a breath of fresh air to read something that is so honest. The content is amazing, looking forward to all of your future blog posts !!!!

kay
kay

April 25, 2020

I LOVE reading your blog! The BAD with the good is what gives us all readers INSPIRATION and separates YOU from E V E R Y B O D Y else in LA. You’re showing us your realness and telling your stories in a way that makes things so relatable for the reader . I love it Morgan! Can’t wait to read more of your crazy times. It gives us all hope we can be strong and powerful as you, and just take one day at a time!

MONICA
MONICA

April 25, 2020

Really enjoyed reading this and how real it was. Also, l could relate to soooo many situations of yours and the way you acted on them. Girls don’t share stuff like that. Many girls have hard times in the situations you had, they might feel like they’re alone and it’s only happening to them. Love the way you empower and embrace women. I feel like you and I would have a great connection in person. Keep it up Morgan ! x

Cynthia Galuppo Tezyk
Cynthia Galuppo Tezyk

April 25, 2020

WOW——- its real life, no bullshit about it just a lot of bullshit. That’s why I always keep saying to you that U need your own reality show, I call it, THE L.A. WOMAN; MORGAN OSMAN it has a rap sound to it. But go for Still That Bitch your logo. U were the young very attractive good girl who stepped out and lived and learned. All of the dopes even the dope itself does not last or make you, you make you and people will use you for their gain, its insane this world aka God’s land. U followed your heart what God Himself placed in you to do in this world, – even to the point of how you hated LA at first but always felt that you should live there. And God opened those doors and even some bad. And no matter how low it goes-for you even in the fashion dept, no one can turn it off what God place in you to do. And for all you’ve been through w/fashion and people…. it would have been flat lined by now-if God did not put in you the seed to carry on. U found your calling, your mission and yes, you listen. God allowed every scene to be scene and felt, meaning you lived out but only for your better, to learn and grow to be come a bigger. WISER, ALERT for a bigger & better platform. God does not need another balless man aka men whining but been building in U a powerful woman who and will fight to carry out a mission. The best is yet to come for you, darling. And why, all fashion HIGH FASHION BRANDS were men back in the growing days? Estee Lauder, Gloria Vanderbelt were the only ladies to make women’s fashion and products. CRAZY!
God Bless its a great start for the new decade for you and you’re doing it all yourself!!
And yes, I still wished that Philip Plein and you married BUT… Its his massive loss and he deep down knows that. The day is coming for when he will toss and turn at night knowing he fucked up royally b’cuz he had the royal class lady next to him and showing great support putting herself aside. That’s a true lady in a real love with her man. Self sacfice.And that’s is what you did and always PROMOTE THAT! DON’T HIDE IT! But today God knows what is best for you and you’re doing it!
Love U for being honest.
And it was a very well written blog that can be a chapter in your auto b.
AND U DO NOT HAVE ASSISSTANTS DOING ALL OF THESE POSTS AND A GHOST WRITER TAKING YOUR STORY AND THAT WRITER WRITE IT, EDIT IT AND DEFINE IT THEN POST IT. (And its a lot of work I just read) and for a novelist that would take a month and that is a chapter. U R Doing everything yourself! And that is what I SEE that God wants you to do, is learn these steps for something much greater. Do not rely on bullshit people ever again! KNOW IT ALL!! YOU’RE BUIDING YOUR BRAND.
XO LOVE! Ms. Tezyk
U ROCK!
Carry on baby!

Eymme
Eymme

April 25, 2020

OH MY GOD MORGAN! Literally drinking my coffee while i read you blog. I love it! It’s so raw and honest and it painted such a clear picture. Sometimes we may think people’s life’s are perfect but this right here shows that everyone goes through shit. We love you Morgan🤍

Gloria
Gloria

April 25, 2020

Morgan… I absolutely love you. Please keep it coming ❤️

Sandra
Sandra

April 25, 2020

Love this — so raw, yet so humble. Also funny that even though you didn’t mention names, people (like me, who have followed you awhile) know who you’re talking about 😂 love that you have come to a place of happiness and peace. LA is definitely full of fake shit and fake people. Ever watched Molly’s Game? LA will put themselves in debt just to make themselves look rich: cars, jewelry, etc..

Sansra
Sansra

April 25, 2020

What a great post ! So raw so real . Thank you for being so open I think we
can connect on a level being I live in la I can totally relate to your experiences. Your truly a strong woman!

Melissa
Melissa

April 25, 2020

This was amazing! love it- keep doing you <3
love that you are so open and real about everything!

Morgan Osman
Morgan Osman

April 25, 2020

Heyy! I’m so happy everyone is loving the blog. As I stated above, unfortunately I cannot respond to people at the time. It’s really upset me. The whole point of the blog was to interact with my real fans, and that’s what you all are. To answer the most asked question so far, I’ve vaguely touched on each topic on purpose. They can then turn into their own topics/blog posts in the future. Each thing I spoke about will come up again, and I will be elaborating more. Trust me guys, I sort of know what I’m doing ;) LOL. And I’ll be back periodically to leave more comments since I can’t reply – I love you all so much

Emily
Emily

April 25, 2020

Your blog is my generations Jennifer Stano blog and I mean that in the most fab way…..we are here and love all of your points honayyyy! I’ve had many friendships end due to similar reasons. I’ve learned those friendships that are just about being on scene & quickly fade the minute we don’t have the same things in common. Keep these coming, I’m sure your NY followers like myself love the bluntness.

xo

Janet
Janet

April 25, 2020

I wish we could like/reply other people’s comments on here

JANET
JANET

April 25, 2020

What a good morning read! You’ve been through so much and you were right about beating statistics. Can’t wait to read more. GOD bless

Kate
Kate

April 25, 2020

Honestly it came out great, way more interesting that expected!

editte
editte

April 25, 2020

Durrani still has pics of your belongings on her instagram. Shameful.

Nana
Nana

April 25, 2020

Loooving the posts! Reading all of it reminds me how long i have been following you and was virtually with you through every phase. My tip is to write more detailed posts about each phase of your life and break one posts into multiples because we’re all here for the details, like chapters. It’s not petty to discuss situations, it was YOUR life. By discussing them it doesn’t mean you’re still hanging on to these situations or people and people who are not interested wouldn’t read the blog, but we signed up to read them and read the details. I’ve always known you have one the biggest hearts out there and it’s not bragging to talk about your charity work as well as all the instagram deals which made you have enough money to do charity work – it’s all connected and we want to zoom on that journey of yours! Thanks for sharing! Hope one day someone makes a movie based on your life! Much love! ❤️

Roxy
Roxy

April 25, 2020

Loved every bit of it, you can feel the realness in the writing. Morgan you are talented in so many ways, and you have always been such a kind and generous human. You have always kept it real from the moment i met you and so generous and kind to the real ones in your life. And i forgot to mention funny and fun. hahaha. xoxo

Helen
Helen

April 25, 2020

Love this post, the length, the detail, the raw honesty. I can totally relate how it feels to get wrapped up in a city with friends that want one thing from you. Love from London

Tatum
Tatum

April 25, 2020

Morgan, I think you hit the nail on the head! I don’t live in California, never have. I love to visit.. but that’s only for the sake of seeing some of my friends! I am loving this blog, Keep the long ones coming. You have plenty to be proud of and I wish you all the best with your future endeavors. I initially started following you for the wrong reasons (I can admit when I am just being a bitch), and it was because I saw what you post about my friends bf (Britney and Sam). I continue to follow you because you are real and raw and I love transparency!!! I live my life the same way….honesty is the best way to make it in the real world. Hollywood is very fukd up! I have seen it through my friends family life.
Thank you for this. Xoxo

Jenna
Jenna

April 25, 2020

Wow, that was such a great read! Thanks so much for sharing. It’s a good reminder to focus on yourself instead off getting so wrapped up in the social media driven world we live it. You really are a role model to women whether you know it or not. Thanks for the share!

nic
nic

April 25, 2020

LOVE IT KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK

Key
Key

April 25, 2020

I really loved this blog. I felt like I was there. I can totally relate to almost every situation you’ve gone through. I’m glad u to see how you’ve transitioned and came out on top! I love you we’re friends in my eyes lol!

Gina
Gina

April 25, 2020

Another great post by the most AUTHENTIC person in Hollywood….. You deserve it all girl and more!:) Can’t wait for what else is in store!

Jazz
Jazz

April 25, 2020

Everyone in LA is curing the day they crossed you LOL

Jordanna
Jordanna

April 25, 2020

Morgan you need to write a book. I love how you write to us, I could read you forever!

Elle
Elle

April 25, 2020

Wow Morgs, what a story! I definitely see a lot of myself in it, and a similar story with dating a crazy ass wealthy man! And having fake ass friends! I live in South Africa, Cape Town btw (The LA of South Africa lol)
Getting lost in the glitz and glam, the drugs and the “scene”. It was a rude awakening for me! I have left the relationship in which I had anything that I could’ve ever imagined in January 2019. And started from scratch, and so far I have proven to myself that there is NOTHING he could’ve given me that I can’t give myself. And that is what makes me the happiest. I’m loving my single life, and focusing on myself. And building my own empire. 💎 I guess it’s also a strong Leo woman thing ♌️ 😉 👑

Can’t wait to read more blog posts! Xxx

Beatriz
Beatriz

April 25, 2020

Wow they really should make a movie about your life. It’s insane. i watched you on bad girls club and up to this day i hate those girls i wish i would’ve of seen more of you in the house. And about your fake friends you just can’t be to giving because people will take advantage of that. I am glad you’re in a good place in life.

Jasmina
Jasmina

April 25, 2020

Ugh Morgan, you’re honestly amazing. I love how real and raw you are!!! LA is definitely a mix of heaven and hell… you painted the picture perfectly. Also LOL is that Durani Popal ( if so what a fkn b****) Honestly, Morgan I’m sure you know this but quality over quantity. Don’t let experiences like that crappy ass friend tarnish new experiences with new people. There’s some truly amazing people out there. Love you and loveeeeee your blogs. I literally read bottom to top and don’t think I took a breath LOL ❤️

Beatriz
Beatriz

April 25, 2020

Wow they really should make a movie about your life. It’s insane. i watched you on bad girls club and up to this day i hate those girls i wish i would’ve of seen more of you in the house. And about your fake friends you just can’t be to giving because people will take advantage of that. I am glad you’re in a good place in life.

Sarah
Sarah

April 25, 2020

And please ! Keep the long post ! Love it

Sara
Sara

April 25, 2020

Can’t thank you enough for being so real and doing this website , saw you a few times in Europe , Pictures don’t give you justice , A total stunner ! We share similar stories and it so Nice to read your articles , feels like reading a friend , Im Proud of you Morgan ! Keep doing what you do xxxx

Amanda
Amanda

April 25, 2020

This is such an amazing and honest post Morgan. Thank you for sharing. I felt like I wanted to give you a hug and high five you at the same time for pulling through all the bull shit. Stronger because of it !!!

Jessica
Jessica

April 25, 2020

beautiful, stylish and bright! keep shining!!!

Faye
Faye

April 25, 2020

OMG i remember following you when your brother was living with you and I thought he was so cute hahaha. Wow cant believe that troll stole from you. I dont even wanna say her name to give her clout on your website smh. And also, I live in south florida feel like I saw you at Mansion during those years… ughh! Cant wait to read more! Always been a supporter since the monkey days !! xoxox

Ava Lewis
Ava Lewis

April 25, 2020

Loved this read. Wish you would have elaborated more on your falling out with Chantel & Catherine. Maybe in the future?

Anyway, you’re strong, inspirational, & most definitely motivating. Thank you for being so raw, honest, & as open as you can be. You’re a hero for a lot of people and I’m happy to hear LA is better to you these days.

saskia loorea
saskia loorea

April 25, 2020

That blog, was like reading a lot of my own life. Nothing was too long at all, as it was so beautifully written from the heart. That in itself needs no explanation. People, need to stop scrolling and actually read. I read a book a week, I have done that my whole life. And I write. Keep it coming. It was wonderful, thank you so much for being you. Much love and kindness xxx

Maggie
Maggie

April 25, 2020

Morgan this is the shit we live for! I love reading your story, I love to know where you come from & how you came to be this bad ass bitch! Your story is addicting, can’t wait to read more!!

Diane
Diane

April 25, 2020

Absolutely loved this! I felt every word. You were made for this shit!

killatrayy
killatrayy

April 25, 2020

I honestly love the fact that not ONLY did you open up about your experiences, but you addressed so many issues women get into with men. Men that use manipulative tactics to control a women and belittle them and make them feel powerless just because they pay all the bills. There are so many women that have to suffer silently and this can truly inspire these people to know that their story doesn’t end there. And these “friends” that will throw on shows and make themselves look like a victim just because they know you have a good heart and they take advantage of that. So many people tried to break Morgan from the jump and she’s STILL rising.

Kenia
Kenia

April 25, 2020

I loved your flora mason collection! I purchased the black lace bodysuit and got so many compliments on it. Excited for you next fashion brand!
I say your take on LA is accurate af.

Roksana
Roksana

April 25, 2020

Love the long posts! I’ve been a follower of yours because of Catherine and Chantel back in the day when yall lived together! Loved seeing what you guys were up to. Crazy to think LA is this way. Being on this topic, have you seen ‘fall of cabal’? Is about everything that’s going on in Hollywood which is crazy, would love to see your opinion on it.
Keep the long posts love them!

Ashley
Ashley

April 25, 2020

Thank you Morgan for being sooo open!! I’ve been following for what seems like forever now of course everyone loves the glitz & glam, but to know what happens on the other side is so eye opening. I am so happy to see you doing well and doing you. Lots of love xo

Cedra M Porter
Cedra M Porter

April 25, 2020

That girl needs her ass beat

Kelly
Kelly

April 25, 2020

Morgan, You should be very proud of yourself. To go through the Highs and Lows and be able to recognize them is remarkable. Stay True to yourself and you will always come out ahead. Wishing you the best life has to offer. oxox

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