by Morgan Osman May 02, 2020 91 Comments
January 13, 2021
Your story resonates with me so much. I love your stories keep writing bb girl. I look forward to it!
July 29, 2020
Wow! Thank you so much for sharing. You write so beautifully & inspiring. Congratulations on this amazing blog of yours <3
June 13, 2020
Another amazing read. I just joined and I’m loving it !!! Morgan is the real deal ❤️
May 25, 2020
U r just the BEST!!
💎 💜☀️🌹🥰💐💐💐
May 24, 2020
Just subscribed 30 minutes ago & already in tears
May 23, 2020
I had no idea who you were until 3 hours ago when a friend sent me a link to an Instagram post with you pulling your pants down midway (hah!). I don’t even have Instagram so stumbling upon that post in itself is improbable on the best of days. Some googling later I find out a few fun facts and then come upon your website. Truth be told I was just looking because you are beautiful! I too am 33 , female , Canadian – and I was most interested in your article about your Plastic surgery. I clicked on it and see i need to subscribe. No problem. then see i need to pay. Gladly. What i was NOT expecting was to read a deeply honest and heartfelt piece full of growth and hope and kindness and resilience. You are a beautiful soul and it radiates from your writing. I wish you all the best. I like to think i don’t judge people at all but i would have passed judgement mostly out of envy if I had seen you in line at a Starbucks. This post has reminded me how important it is to cleanse my soul of that subconscious reflex to assume anything about anyone. I think you’ll do so many things in this lifetime that will contribute to humanity, because of your experiences and growth through it all. Thank you for sharing. Off to eat a slice of humble pie myself.
Much love from Toronto, Canada
Ann
May 22, 2020
Morgan I follow u since you work at mansion I don’t have the pleasure to know you personally but I feel u and admire u do much , I had an stron I dance with a lot of deep histories , I’m right now battling with my becoming best version , I feel connected si much with you , because I did manny similar things I used to use manny drugs and have fun and always feel empty inside , trying always to help people and always forgetting myself, always put everyone as a pr less than myself , I always knew I sure that you history was hard, people had the habit to judge book for the cover , I love people like you honest and open , for my my values are my biggest gift from god , I’m te same way believe I’m really I’m , i hope one I can meet you , and I wish be my best version like you did , love u Morgan and still be that bitch
May 22, 2020
This is why I look forward to your posts so much! So incredibly inspiring. You’re an amazing writer 😍
May 22, 2020
This is an amazingly touching post 💜
May 15, 2020
I just want to say I hope you truely grasp how many women and young girls you’ll help when you share these parts of you. Your own story of a David vs Goliath will inspire for weeks and years to come. Thank you for sharing ❤️
May 13, 2020
dude I love your shirts so much. I wore it the other day and some random guy said “who is that on your shirt” and I replied “she’s a business woman”
May 12, 2020
Everyone is fighting their own battle.. The most important is that you know your worth and who you are!! I used to read loads of Instagram bulls*it stories and there is something that’s make you special – You always keep everything real! Thanks for sharing your story it’s very touching but at the same time its helps me to realise who I am and who I want to be! Love & respect xx
May 11, 2020
I know I’m always telling you this but I’ll say it again I Love you sis! Thank you for your heart 💖
May 10, 2020
Seriously write a book!
May 10, 2020
Beautiful & inspiring. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. This post hits hard… in a good way❤️
May 09, 2020
Thank you for this post Morgan. I was in tears, because of how much I related. For me, I am on a journey of self forgiveness. I believe when I forgive myself for my mistakes, that’s when I can learn to love myself. This post reminds me that I can forgive myself and we all make mistakes. I hope to be where you are in your journey of self love in the near future.
May 07, 2020
Wow ! This was so amazing to read I have chills, that’s so sad about your childhood . Your so right about how people only post the good parts on IG . Thank you so much for being so real . Love this website so glad you did it xoxo Brit
May 07, 2020
I just wanted everyone to know I read and feel all of your comments. I appreciate everyone being so open with me. I’m waiting for this platform to allow me to respond to you individually. Unfortunately, this time it’s still not available. It’s really upsetting to me as I stated in the past, because that was the whole point of this platform. I wish I could respond to each and everyone of you. Just know that I see your comments and I they mean a lot to me. I’m loving all of the love 💕
May 06, 2020
I admire your courage for telling your story. Reading some of the comments, shows how you have helped so many readers with your experience. It is rare to find that extremely compassionate and understanding soul, that exudes the most sincere form of honesty. Your personal bravery is inspiring. God Bless xoxo
May 06, 2020
I admire your courage for telling your story. Reading some of the comments, shows how you have helped so many readers with your experience. It is rare to find that extremely compassionate and understanding soul, that exudes the most sincere form of honesty. Your personal bravery is inspiring. God Bless xoxo
May 05, 2020
Thank you so much for sharing this post. your post has made me to into my past and see how i’ve treated myself for the past few years. Which was complete shit and still is. But reading this is very inspiring and encourages me to switch my outlook on my life. To accept my past for what it was but keep it pushing. I had to write a personal essay about the relationship between my father and I for my class and at the end I wrote that “let the past go. the world doesnt go on pause because you cant let something go” and reading your post reminded me of this sentence. Your blog really makes my day and it’s so refreshing. Thank you again. Can’t wait for your next post!!
May 05, 2020
Amazing…
You are Amazing.
God is Amazing.
Keep following your light!!
Your words ….simply Amazing!
May 05, 2020
Amazing…
You are Amazing.
God is Amazing.
Keep following your light!!
Your words ….simply Amazing!
May 05, 2020
Got a little teary at the start there, was rushing to finish my assignments to come and read this haha. I felt like i needed to hear this, i needed this type of motivation. You truly are amazing Morgan, keep it up. Much love xoxo
May 05, 2020
You are fucking special Xox love you girl
May 04, 2020
This is everything! I know myself and millions of people/women can relate to this on so many different platforms. Thank you for sharing this with us and being so vulnerable!! Can’t wait to read all your future posts! You’re amazing :)
May 04, 2020
Thank you for sharing, I have suffered through something similar as child which caused me a lot of pain through out my 20s. It is comforting to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. After reading this I feel strong, not so shameful of my past and feel reassured that I am moving forward and I don’t have to wear my past everyday.
May 04, 2020
How much I love you ❤️
May 03, 2020
I used to punish myself for my horrible past but I learned to use it as strength. I’m not always good at it and I let fear and anxiety over come me at times. From everything I’m constantly building a life for myself where I make the rules. My own money and get to make decisions based on what I want now. Nothing is a better feeling at the end of the day.
May 03, 2020
Morgan,
You inspire me to let go of obsessing and fear and start letting in the positive. I related so much to you in this post about being your own worst enemy. You are an inspiration and strong as hell girl! You make me proud to be a woman of strength. There’s a difference between a strong woman and a woman of strength and you’re definitely the later. Thank you for opening up, thank you for being so real, thank you for being you! Love being apart of your journey and coming out a little stronger because of your words! Keep kicking ass!
Xo
Annelise
May 03, 2020
❤️❤️❤️❤️
May 03, 2020
Morgan, what an amazing post. And what is more amazing is that you took all you had and went threw and made it work to your advantage. It made you into this powerful, inside and out, beautiful woman and soul. And it is amazing that you praise the Lord! He always makes things workout in His time. I just feel and love your good energy. I am so grateful and excited for your blog and so looking forward for all the posts! Really counting the days to your beauty related ones, Queen:))) Cannot wait to see your skin care! Body care too please! Teeth care?! (I got veneers too and wonder if you do anything special to maintain your sparkling smile))). Well, let’s just say i am such a big fan of yours! Xoxoxo
May 03, 2020
Morgan
I had the same life growing up just add sexual abuse and foster homes. This really made me cry.
May 03, 2020
Morgan!!!
This brings tears to my eyes. I never thought I could love or admire you more than I already did, this post shows your beauty inside and out and an entirely new light. You are such an activist for empowering women! I’m so proud of you. The future is bright!!!
I love you!!!!!!!
May 03, 2020
Omg needed this! So inspiring ❤️
May 03, 2020
Girl, you’re a light. Thank you for sharing your journey. I’m a survivor of abuse and I want you to know that you’re doing the work and your path is guided for you!! We love you❤️
May 03, 2020
Literally love all of this! Thank you for sharing this with us 💕
May 03, 2020
Ah, I see what you meant about getting emotional when writing this post.
It’s beautiful.
Sending love
May 03, 2020
Anyway I forget to say: only God can judge us, nobody else. Thank you for be so honest!
May 03, 2020
Hey Morgan it doesn’t matter how often you fall, it’s about how you get up and that makes you stronger. I’am so f*cking proud off you!! my childhood was also anything but great I feel your pain but that makes you who you are, you are not a b*tch you are super smart and strong! Your blog is great keep it up. Lots off love from Holland.
May 02, 2020
Amazing ❤️
May 02, 2020
So inspiring Morgan, this post is helping me on my journey more than you know! Keep up the amazing growth you’re doing! Xxx
May 02, 2020
Hey Morgan, I know your not looking for sympathy because thats the same thing that I say too when I mention my past to people. I am heartbroken to read how your mother treated you. Ive been there too and truly sorry you had to go through that. Your incredibly strong to post about that openly. I have so much respect and love for you. I see a lot of myself in you. You are a saint Morgan😇 ❤️
I was looking forward to reading your new post all week. Honestly :) and I literally NEVER read anything because reading doesn’t come easy to me (I’m dyslexic) but I read each blog post a couple of times as I enjoy it so much. Please don’t stop posting and keep going.
May 02, 2020
Morgan I wish I could give you the biggest hug ! I started following you because I liked your fashion posts – but now it’s total respect and admiration.
You should be so proud of the hard choices you have made and the person that you are today.
Love the blog 💗💗
May 02, 2020
Hi Morgan, I am an Italian girl and I hope you will excuse my English if it’s not perfectly written..🙏🏻
I can not express in this moment how much your words have touched my soul deep inside.
You are a beautiful and brave soul, but this is something I always knew since when I first saw you with Philippe.
I knew you had a fire inside and I wasn’t wrong! I adore reading you, listening to you and I just want to send you all my love 🖤 please keep doing what you’re doing and you must be really proud of the woman you have become🖤
Let me tell you, it would be such an honor for me to call you my friend 😘 God bless you babe, stay safe and thank you!!!
May 02, 2020
One of a kind 🖤
May 02, 2020
Thank you so much for sharing this part of your journey with us! I think you hit a couple of us in the gut with this! It’s wild to think that we are always trying to find ourselves. I’m a 44 year old woman, married 25 years and have a 20 year old son….I am Still looking for myself at times. With growth, we change, and we are growing daily. I find myself getting lost at times, scared, vulnerable, the list goes on….but through therapy and a lot of soul searching, I am proud of who I am today! I like to take life one day at a time! I was waiting for this post, and I want to thank you again…your voice matters so much and your being heard. ❤️💕
May 02, 2020
I really think you should write a book. I mean that could have been a whole chapter. ❤️
May 02, 2020
This is my most favorite post! I wasn’t sure what to expect from this exact post but let me just thank you Morgan! Thank you for saying all the truth we all live yet fail to acknowledge it!
May 02, 2020
To have someone describe me exactly and to know that someone else has been through this exactly is makes you feel not alone!
I read quote one time that said “please do not judge me for the survival skills I picked up along the way”
I love your blog and I’m soooooooooo proud of you! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK❤️
Xoxo,
Mitsy
May 02, 2020
Another fantastic well-written post. Kudos to you for going sober. I’d love to hear more about your sobriety journey! ❤️
May 02, 2020
You are resilient and strong! Thank you for sharing your story with us. God bless!
May 02, 2020
This must have taken so much courage. How inspirational Morgan. Life is so precious and your start in life wasn’t fair but my god have you shined and conquered and this is just the beginning for you ☺️ You will do great and wonderful things with that strength
May 02, 2020
Wow this brought tears to my eyes. You are a beautiful, brave and strong soul. Extremely empowering and uplifting to so many who have gone through or going through life struggles and need to know they’re not alone. You can come out of it better and love yourself. I agree a relationship with God is extremely important. I talk to him out loud too and it helps it truly does!
Thank you for being so real.
All positive love and light xox
May 02, 2020
This took a very brave girl to write and share! You should be very proud of yourself. This was the best kind of therapy for you beautiful!
May 02, 2020
Keep strong you will get where you wish. XX love your posts.
May 02, 2020
Thank you for sharing your story. I can relate. My mom has bipolar and treated me the same as your mother did to u….and she still does. Its very hard and sad. She has never done drugs but should…lol..she needs to chill. She refuses all medication which would help tremendously. I grew to be strong and I turned out to get my masters in social work and psychology trying to figure out what was wrong with my mother and why others can be so cruel. She hasnt changed but I have. The relationship I share with God is amazing and wouldnt trade it for the world. I doubt some guy will ever come close. I live in miami and dont trust them at this point. Thank you for sharing something so personal. It just makes you more amazing (if that is even possible) It gives me so much strength. ♥️👄
May 02, 2020
Thank you for sharing your story. I can relate. My mom has bipolar and treated me the same as your mother did to u….and she still does. Its very hard and sad. She has never done drugs but should…lol..she needs to chill. She refuses all medication which would help tremendously. I grew to be strong and I turned out to get my masters in social work and psychology trying to figure out what was wrong with my mother and why others can be so cruel. She hasnt changed but I have. The relationship I share with God is amazing and wouldnt trade it for the world. I doubt some guy will ever come close. I live in miami and dont trust them at this point. Thank you for sharing something so personal. It just makes you more amazing (if that is even possible) It gives me so much strength. ♥️👄
May 02, 2020
OMG love this x such a strong person to write about what you have been through. Love your honesty, wish u all the luck for your future ❤️ You deserve it so much x
May 02, 2020
OMG love this x such a strong person to write about what you have been through. Love your honesty, wish u all the luck for your future ❤️ You deserve it so much x
May 02, 2020
Omg😭😭 so inspiring!!! You are so strong!!!!
May 02, 2020
This post made me tear up. I too have a rocky past with my mother. She’s not mentally ill but she would constantly call me fat, stupid, ugly, etc. and then blame me because I ended up having mental health issues growing up. I don’t care what anyone says, your childhood has EVERYTHING to do with who you grow up to be. At 21, I’m in the process of trying to overcome those struggles. I won’t lie that it’s been incredibly hard, but hearing your story has given me strength. Morgan, you are so incredibly strong and brave for sharing your story. I hope you know how many people appreciate your rawness.
May 02, 2020
Morgan love, thank you for sharing your story. It takes a lot of courage but this is certainly the best way to heal from your past.
It makes me very happy to see how much honesty, love and kindness I can find on this Blog, from your side and also in the comments from all these beautiful and curious people who wanted to get to know you better and deeper. I am following you on Instagram since maybe 4 years and have always been amazed by you not only your beauty and body but also cause of your strength and now that I’ve read your story it all made sense. My heart hurts to hear about the relationship you have had with your mother and as you perfectly said it by yourself, that this was not your fault! She surely has had her own battles especially with mental health to fight and maybe this was the best she could do but most important is how far you have come and realize that through every situation in life how God hast helped you to get through and there we comes to these 2 most important relationships in life..
1. the trust and faith in to God and 2. the trust and faith into yourself.
I can relate to a few things that has happened to you and am now also since 2-3 years actively on my healing path and this is a process. Nobody can say how long it will take, cause we learn every day something new in life but I would like to share with you what has really helped me a lot in this process..
1. A lovely and solid relationship to God (always be more grateful than demanding) 2. to forgive those who have hurt you in life (even if you never heard or never will hear an apology) anger inside of your body will lower your frequency and will in the long run harm your health. 3. Meditation and Yoga (I’m sure you have heard this a lot but I can not tell you how much it has unexpectedly change my life in so many great ways. I have become so much more centered in life and in situation in which I earlier would have probably reacted different).
Tonight I’ll keep you in my prayers and sending you much love and light.
xx Sani
May 02, 2020
I’m so proud of you , Morgan! You have come so far and every struggle/hardship you’ve had has shaped you into the intelligent, kind, strong, independent woman you are today! I’ve followed you for a while now and I’ve always thought you were beautiful, but with each blog post I read the more I love you as a person. Never forget your worth Xo
May 02, 2020
Inspiring. Strong. Resilient. Motivating.
May 02, 2020
Thanks for sharing your incredible story. You are such a strong and beautiful person. You give hope to a lot of people and I appreciate everything that you have shared with us about your life journey. Your future is very bright!
❤️
May 02, 2020
Your mom sounds borderline
May 02, 2020
My first ever comment on your social media ( I have been following you for about two years now). This is truly a very inspirational post! Makes me feel empowered! I hope other girls/women reading this feel the same! Now I can really say, you are my idol for sure! And girl, I only have countable female idols ( okay, you’re the second one ;p).
This comment is to show my love and support and RESPECT!!♥️ Please keep up your good work!
May 02, 2020
There is always s a bitch in the bunch and she is the one who LEARNED HOW TO PUNCH BACK. So a man will always attack a beautiful strong lady and when he knows he will never have a chance in hell with her… he will be the loudest to bitch and whine. You are right where God needs you to do bigger and better things, life is not about ALWAYS GETTING EVERYONE’S APPROVAL CODE STAMPED THAT YOU’RE GOLD, or a new diamond rings to show that someone loves you, but your legacy and its ending. Never stop being you! U have been growing leaps and bounds… since I first saw you. Where you have been doesn’t make you a.k.a. we are not what happened happens to us. We are what we make of it!!! Love U Ms. Tezyk
May 02, 2020
Your rawness is EVERYTHING. Reading this is such a huge reminder to myself that I can let go of my past accept it for what it was and just grow and be happy. Literally the strength and confidence you have is just another thing that makes you LEGENDARY!
May 02, 2020
You’re amazing Morgan!! <3 x
May 02, 2020
I have never commented on anything you posted but this resonated with me so very deeply as I had the same kind of childhood. I love reading your journey, keep it up!
May 02, 2020
Truly so inspiring ❤️❤️❤️
May 02, 2020
how human of you. <3
May 02, 2020
“THAT BITCH” stronger then ever!! 💋🚨
May 02, 2020
Morgan, no one has ever inspired me like that my entire life. You make me believe life is worth it through all good and bad. Maybe one day I will see you (..not sure🥺) and will be able to hug you and say thank you❤️…
May 02, 2020
Wow so powerful you truly are an amazing beautiful person ,god bless
Morgan❤️
May 02, 2020
love it once again so true help m,e a lot with a situation that I am having right now :)
May 02, 2020
Thank you for sharing your story❤️ It’s important the stories and lives effected by mental illness are told and not hidden in the shadows. My mom is bipolar I and never managed it sadly so I know some of what you went through.
May 02, 2020
Maybe that’s where the fascination is for you from your fans- you couldn’t be “normal” if you tried. We all know how diamonds are made babe.
Diamonds( this case MBO) are formed in the Earth’s mantle, somewhere between 1 and 3 billion years ago ( or in this case about 32 years ago) Formed by heat and pressure ( or nature and nurture) diamonds are then delivered to the Earth’s surface by deep-source volcanic eruptions or the movement of subduction zones that bring the diamonds up to the ocean floor ( or La, basically at Sea Level lol!) .Another moving , vulnerable and soft post. Gave me chills.
May 02, 2020
Just wow, wow wow wow. Respect & love, always🙏🏼💕
May 02, 2020
What an incredible read . I waited all week for this . Your truly such a strong woman . May the years ahead be amazing and beautiful like you . Your truly deserve all the happiness in the world . I love love love this can’t wait for the next read ❤️
May 02, 2020
Amazing, incredible, inspiring. I’ve been following you on Instagram for around 3 years now and I can definitely say that I noticed that you were guarding or protecting yourself because I do the same! Hardships make people very guarded, I am too still learning and unlearning daily. I still don’t have the balls to face my reality, my past and my traumas let alone post it for the world to read like how you have. You are so strong for being able to do so! I really look up to you and it shows me that it does get better. Thank you for this post Morgan. I sure as hell needed it! 💕
May 02, 2020
Bitchhhh,
Usually the strongest people are the ones who suffered the most. It’s crazy to see you Overcome so much in your life and still look like a fucking queen. When you broke up with Phillip the first time, you never lost “The Morgan touch”, you kept it graceful never showed signs of even giving a fuck you left him (which now confirms to me that’s prob why he always wants you back)) because I like any girl he’s dated you’re fucking real: I mean like deep in the core real. You’ve suffered so much in life that has molded you into this person. Thank your childhood . We wouldn’t be who we are without. It’s bitter sweet but look at the butterfly that came out of this.
Fucking story sis!
May 02, 2020
Dearest Morgan, thank you so much for sharing. I can totally relate to everything you said and your Blog has made me cry. Cry for all my years lost through, addiction, and lack of self worth and the pain I allowed others to inflict on me. Today, it is a different story and that is why I relate to you so much. You are a beautiful beacon of light and I thank you once again. Much love and kindness, xxx
May 02, 2020
Girl, I have the same Mom… I started to cry reading this. Add a touch of Foster homes… all of it.
I FEEL this. Thanks for sharing! Xo
May 02, 2020
First I want to thank you for sharing this particular post. I can only imagine how hard it was to be so transparent with us, moreover to relive certain experiences. Although my narrative isn’t the same, I’ve been through my fair share of shit within my 24 years of life. Throughout my journey, I can genuinely say that I forgot how to love myself; I allowed myself to lose my identity. As a result, I often would seek validation from men. Moreover I have this crazy habit of dating significantly older men (which didn’t help the situation- daddy issues). Nonetheless, it wasn’t until recently that I realized that I needed a change; that the love that I wanted from these men is the same love that I should’ve given myself. This self love journey has been a lonely one thus far, but its equally rewarding. In saying this, thank you for reassuring me that I’m not a bitch for wanting to love myself and have high standards. Also, that its okay for me to make mistakes and to grow from them- my mistakes do not define my character. You’ve shown me that I’m allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress, simultaneously.
xo
May 02, 2020
What an amazing read, can relate so much to you, especially coming out of a relationship and trying to find that love for yourself again! Thank you Morgan for always keeping it real
May 02, 2020
Wow. I cried. You got me thinking about my life, my struggles and so much. I’m so proud of you Morgan. I can’t wait to see what else this beautiful life has in store for you, you deserve it. I’m so glad on your growth a lot of younger kids in who grew up in your position never progress and grown from those sad situation and grow up lost. You’re strong because you gave yourself the gift of growth. Reading this also made me realize and accept things in my life. Thank you. I’ll always support you Morgan.
May 02, 2020
Morgan, I love your voice so much. You are speaking right into my heart when you say to live your truth unapologetically. I am struggling a lot right now and reading this is incredibly, incredibly touching and heartfelt and fucking amazing. I’ve never met you but I love your soul so much. <3
May 02, 2020
so inspiring babe
Morgan Osman
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